Lust vs. Love

(Caution: Thoughts, not facts, thoughts and opinions from this writer, you are about to be read, read at your own risk)

You can be in lust with someone. Lust is defined in the dictionary (the first definition) as a very strong sexual desire. The second definition is just a very strong desire for something. But I think when most of us think of lust we think of the first definition. Anyway you can be in lust with someone. This may be sexual, or just emotional I think too or both, probably both.  I think that when you're in lust with someone that their feelings and wants become less important and your feelings and desire become more important. In other words, your own selfishness is abounding.

I am sharing this because this has been happening to me recently. I have been thinking very selfishly and wanting to be with someone because of the way he makes me feel. Now I don't think it is bad to feel good, but when my feelings start only thinking about myself and how I feel that is when my selfishness is abounding. I am loving, I am lusting. Loving would be wanting to be near this person because he is so awesome, he is caring, he is one of those people that you just see all the time and want to be friends with if you aren't already and if you are then you just want to be better friends. He plays awesome music and is active and talented in soccer. He works hard and tries to always help his family when they need him most. He makes me think about stuff that I don't want to think about but should. He loves God and is trying to serve Him and seek Him.

Yes it is great that he makes me feel good and happy, but my thoughts and desires to be near him have not been because of the reasons I just listed. They have been for selfish reasons. So all I am saying is that there is a difference between lust and love and I really want to love, not lust. Something I need to work on. And I'm going to.

I'm am not very good at this blog thing... ( Falling in Love Part 2)

First I would like to apologize for not keeping up with this as I probably should be...aahh!
Anyway something hit me about love the other day (keep in mind these are my thoughts, not necessarily facts) I just have to remember what it was. OH!!!! Got it. Ok so obviously if you are in love with someone, not everything is going to be butterflies and rainbows (as I said in a previous post) but when life gets hard and situations come up that make loving that person difficult then there is a choice that is made: either to keep pushing on in the relationship (love) or to leave.

This is quite short, but if you would like me to go into depth (which means - I talk about my experiences with this) then I shall.

Falling in Love Part 1

I think I know what falling in love is like...I am falling in love with Him. How do I know? First, because it is painful. Who said falling was going to be butterflies and rainbows...falling hurts. One thing I can say is that the falling part is worth it :). I am falling in love with Him. How do I know? I want to be with Him. I want to experience His Presence constantly. I want to share in His joy and share in His sadness and pain too. If I do something I know hurts Him I feel horrible and just want to crawl back into His arms and beg for forgiveness even though I know I don't deserve it. I want to hug Him...forever. I want to wrap my arms around His waist and squeeze. I know I am falling in love because when I know I have put a smile on His Face...it is the best feeling in the world! Falling in love is hard to explain and I can't explain it, but I know. I get it (not completely...I don't think I ever will). It is Amazing.

"I love you." 6/4/11

You know, I don't remember anyone ever explaining to me what the words "I love you" meant when I was little...do you? Weird...its seems people only start defining it when they begin to search for it. When we were young we had no need to explore it...we just deep inside understood I guess...understand what though? Did we understand? Will we ever?
One thing that sticks out to me is that I always knew my parents' loved/love me, even when they would be upset with me, that knowing has never left me because they have definitely showed me how much they care. Hmm...

What is Love?

Ok so I recently decided that I want to research Love...I know weird right, but I honestly want to find out what true true Love is..so this blog is going to be doing just that. It'll be showing my findings and discoveries within my own life and other peoples lives and it will show my questions and such. Please note by the world's culture name for my reliogious affiliation I am a "Christian" so many of my post and research will be from the Bible, but please don't let that keep you from reading..because honestly I am just a normal girl (or woman technically, but i don't feel like it) who wants to know what True Love is and if it is out there. Ok so that's what this will be. Thanks Bye :)